The Official Journal Of Raquela Berakiki

Gravy again!! I'm super puyat!! I slept past 2 and I'm kinda ngarag.. Photoshoot..

Grabe na talaga ang gabi ito hindi pa ako patulugin kasi naman ang saya magconvert ng videos sa mp3. Hahahaha. Ayon. Siguro ito pangtanggal sura ko sa school. I super hate school now. Ang plastic na kasi ng kapaligiran dun. Masyado polluted. Tama talaga desisyon ko na wag na umattend ng graduation. School sucks. Buti na lang natitimpi ko pa sarili ko pero minsan talaga gusto ko na rin magalit. If ever na makita nila itong LJ ko, wala akong pakialam. Bakit ba nagkaganito na buhay eskwela ko? Siguro pakshet lang talaga ang karamihang naeencounter ko. But u know what I'm happy I could write a song because of them (pakshets). I don't like staying sa school pa ng matagal if I'm alone. Wala naman kasi mapala. Buhay sa school ay hindi mo alam kung ano ka nga ba dun. Halur, pareparehas tayo na nagbabayad ng tuition. Leche. Leche Flan. Pastillas de Leche. So nga pala to my LJ friends and fans please download my songs or the whole album @ aimini.net. Eatingkangkongsdippedinbagoong is the album and the singer of course is Raquela Berakiki. Ayon nagpromote na din ako.

Lorve You,

Raquela Berakiki

I'm lovin' my life. You why? Well maybe because I'm really challenged by how it turns me down. So amazing. You know what by the time that I got this online journal, all I've written is about a shitloads of problem and hopeless things. Eh sa malungkot talaga ang life. Hehe, I feel the almost the school stuffs are angry with me. Ewan, that's how I feel. Well, forget about 'em. Another thing we were told to write an essay about how or why should we be proud living in Batangas. I said HELLO! I super hate the hometown and some of the people. I feel that I'm kinda excommunicated in our town. Maybe because I really hate my cousins, well they're just some of them. Sorry, if my come back in writing here is shitty. Maybe next time I'll be better.

Lorve You,

Raquela Berakiki

Well it's been a long not blogging here. I really miss this blog site. This is my first online diary. Chorva kaya dami nyo alam about me. Ayon medyo bwisit ang buhay ko ngayon sa school. Grabe five years na ako sa college and nothing changed. What else to say? Ayon hindi pa bumebenta ang album ko. Please buy it, buy it. Gusto ko lang may entry ako ngayon.

Lorve You,

Raquela Berakiki

 I'm just thinking about what my life would be in the future. I know I can't be successful for so many reasons. But it's a matter of deadmatology, I'm over it. This is not being cynical, it's about telling how I feel. I know I'm kinda gifted and bright, i write and produce my own songs, and I'm really friendly. Maybe because of my face that's why people consider me a bad, boastful and asshole. Again, I'm over it. I know I'm a failure because I came from a great school two-three hours away from my house but now I'm just two rides away. Well, I can't do anything with that, my parents didn't trust me. They think I'm weak to stand on my own. Well, they're my parents and I respect them. I know I'm not a rich one. "I'm just living with my dreams when I'm sleeping and leaving them when I'm awake" - Bounvurt. I'm always hopeful but it all end hopeless. I'm working very hard, doing all my best but still it's underappreciated. I once loved two person, the first one is stupid because I never knew that he's straight and really dislikes me, and the second seems so sweet but still didn't like me because I really sucked. About finding someone to love, I guess my answer is half "I'm over it" and "I'm still thinking about". Well I live by the maybe's. About my friends, I understand if they will leave me soon. Well I guess that would be great. I don't want to be a weight to them. I just wanna see them successful and happy. I have these weird feelings about my friends but I don't want to think about it because I don't want to think they're bad because I respect them. (This has nothing to do with my friends in UST, because I'll always love you and you hadn't done something wrong with me). Now, I'm a loser but I promise that I'm trying to fix myself out of the bullshits. Maybe, my fault is I have so much dreams that are just not meant for me. I'm sorry, I'm just one of those ambitious individuals trying to pull ourselves from poverty and wanting a great future. At this moment, I just want to make sure that even my true friends would leave me, I love me, myself and I. Those three personas will keep me composed and will not forget those three can love me completely. I'm not angry with my friends but just wanna say this because you will forget my name and it's a nice feeling because for the first time in my life, I will feel the truest thing in life that your self is the one you can lean on through whatever. This is a great lesson for me. Just love your Best Friend. Just LOVE Yourself.

I Love Me, 

Raquela Berakiki

Chorva! Malapit na ang pasko.. Well sana marami akong gift na maibigay.. See.. Hindi ko na iniisip sarili lang.. Chorva kayo.. Medyo malungkot ang morning na ito.. Ewan pero yun ang nafi-feel ko.. Sobrang napuyat ako last night kasi I watched a movie.. Liberated.. Masaya na ok yung ending.. Haaay, ano kaya magawa.. Nakakatamad and mga take home exams.. Nakakaloka.. Yun lang..

Halur talaga ang buhay ko ngayon.. Masaya na parang hindi.. Marami kasi chismax ang buhay na nakakabigla.. Sabihin na natin na medyo in love ang lola nyo pero hindi masyadong fulfilled ang pagiging masaya.. Masalimuot talaga ang tunay na life.. Maraming chagabal chabi nga ni MAHAL.. Sila sa ngayon ang inspiration.. Ang hirap lang nila maintindihan.. Mabuhay ang mga katulad nila.. Cute.. Bkit ko naisipang magLJ.. Wala nghahung kasi sa site ko.. Tanginang un.. Pero ok naman ako parang OK s OK!.. Weird no?? Kahit nga ako hindi ko alam kung san papatungo ang sinusulat ko.. Ayoko sa ngayon maging chismosa.. Medyo hindi ko pa rin fil ung bago kong skul.. USTE pa rin at wala ng iba.. Pasensya na kaso ang dami ko talagang duda dito s bgong pamantasan i mean colegio.. madrama b?? well ngayon lang ulit ako ng tatagalog.. Ang dami ko namimiss sa ngayon.. punyeta talaga.. Nmimiss ko ang net ko dati sa dapitan with gzelita.. pero mas nmmiss ko talaga ang P. Noval.. Haaaaaaay, Kuya Homer musta na ang mga tao jan?? I miss mini stop.. Well dont worry kasi inaayos ko naman ang buhay dito.. Kahit sa hinagap ko na medyo walang katuparan ok lang.. Ngayon ko patutumbahin ang mga walang utak at lahat ng kaalaman ay inipon lang sa kanikanilang mababahong tumbong.. Well wala naman sinabi yung isang kalaban ko saken.. 1 syang gayagaya putomaya lang.. Bad ba ako?? Hindi nga ako nagsasabi ng pangalan.. Avoid listing those shit names.. Miss ko na ang vajula, joana, angge, gian at buong clasmates.. Punta ba ako paskuhan?? Hindi ko pa alam eh?? Ang dami pa rin akong tanong sa buhay ko.. Sana may nage-LJ pa rin.. Ok parin kasi ito.. Mas nalalabas ko ng buong buo ang mga gusto kong sabihin dito.. Miss ko na ang siomai sa asturias.. At ang chili sauce na tumapon dati sa damit ni gzel.. Napahiya ako dun sobra dahil sa katangahan ko.. Well hanggang ngayon magkasama pa rin kami sa chibugan.. Bakit kailangan lahat magbago.. Tanggap ko na naman sa ngayon e.. Ok talaga yung instrumento ni GOD.. Thanks GOD..  Un lang.. Salamat mga fans-it!!

Lorve You Like Iya Villania,

Raquela Berakiki

Well i'm still busy doing my album.. i'm still wondring kung kelan ako punta ng uste.. ang dami ko p tlagang ga2win.. naaawa ako sa king sarili.. sana kasi hindi na ito nangyari sa akin.. im so sad.. gudnyt.. i hate midwest and the whole batangas region..

I'm Not OK,

Raquela Berakiki

Im feeling sick now.. i dont know why.. i was really not in the mood this past few days.. i wanted someone to talk to.. i miss all of my friends (high school and college).. i missed everything now with my barkada.. Im lonely, heeeeeeeeeeeelp..

Boohoo,

Raquela Berakiki 

I'm not an Avril addict.. Un lang wala kasi mai-title.. tagal ko din nd lj.. aun mis ko na friends ko sa uste.. hay i'm almost done with my demo ang problema nd ko am kung kelan ko release.. Ang dami ko ngayon fave na singer especially Katharine McPhee.. Sa OPM si Julianne.. Type nya din kasi si India.Arie.. What else my bago akong single grabe so patama sa mga dapat tamaan.. Loser talaga sila kahit anong gawin.. Ayaw nila kasi tulungan sarili nila.. I also can't help not to write.. I want to share it to other friends kasi sobrang iba yung takbo ng utak ko this past few weeks.. Sorry sa mga nagtatanong, medyo in love ako ngaun.. Konti lang hindi maxado.. Sa wakas gumagaling na gums ko.. Wala akong bad breath, excuse me.. Alam nyo mga friends dapat araw araw ako ngbblog.. un lang.. mis you scent, gian, joan, angge..

Love you,

Raquela Berakiki